Parkszene mit verliebter junger Frau, Berthold Woltze
they: “You’re so chill…”
me: “I’m completely disconected from reality right now.”
That mind/mood setting was me, or better yet, how the world saw me for 30+ years.
I wasn’t able or allowed to be Laura, I had to lock her up, pretend she wasn’t there. I had to build walls so thick to keep her in. Those walls made it impossible for any emotion to get out, for any emotion to get in. My body and feelings were totally disconnected from me.
Cue “you’re so chill and relaxed and undisturbed.”
